long time no talk, huh? i got a new blog at tireswing.blogspot.com. another one i hadnt updated in awhile.

  posted by me @ 5:35:00 PM

 
Wowww. I bet no one reads this at all anymore! Tee hee hee. So my eyes are aching, my head is aching, and its hotter than a mug in here. Oh and its 3am. Oh and i am so about to get some food. I go through lil things still where i'll be like 'no i cant eat this' or 'i am way too fat for this' but i do it anyway. So i guess its ohkay to have the thoughts if you dont do the actions? Who knows what i'm even talking of. And now i'm learning about SoEd yay! But Ky said a lot of :( stuff happened. So sad. Dont know what yet. why are my eyes aching so much? oh yah maybe cuz i left my contacts in all nite. But still ooooooouuuchhhhies. Now i am taken by two boys in my school! How weird! I never really thought serious about boys at my school (specially ones in my CLASSES!) besides Derek and its carazy. Tee hee. Carazy. Tee hee. Achy! Let me try drops again. A lil better. Alritie. Hey if you somehow think to check this and are reading this right now YAH YOU then please note me and let me know how you are. I havent talked to a lot of people in awhile and i miss yall. Tummy is growling. Rawwwwwr! :)

  posted by me @ 3:33:00 AM

 
Today is a very positive day. Tee hee hee. :) :) :) I got this great wonderful email from Shelby. I dont usually read forwards but i love this. Its too bad my printer doesnt work though but oh well! :)

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctor worry about them. That is why you pay him/her.
2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.
3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. " An idle mind is the devil's workshop."And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets,
keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, to the next county, to aforeign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.
10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

I love it i love it. And the song called "Hold On" by Good Charlotte, of course. Download that if you read this cuz it is great. Trust me:) Plus Benji is fine. Yay!

  posted by me @ 1:11:00 PM

 
And another from Ms Em. Sorry to anyone reading. La li la:) I love these and i dont want to unpack! Tee hee.

When was the last time you ...
Smiled?: I dont know, like a little while ago?
Laughed?: ^ditto.
Cried?: i'm sorry Em:( ~New Years Eve Eve i said!
Bought something?: New Years Eve.
Danced?: New Years Eve.
Were sarcastic?: Never!...
Kissed someone?: Ah!
Watched your favorite movie?: One of them yesterday.
Had a nightmare?: Always.
Last book you read: Ah! Caesar... for school aw.
Last song you heard: Underneath it All, No Doubt.
Last thing you had to drink: Root Beer.
Last time you showered: An hour or so ago.
Last thing you ate: I dont know like a cookie or something.
---Body---
1. What do you most like about your body?: We did this before! Eyelids! Tee hee. Really though maybe my legs if they werent so pale and when i sat down they werent fatter.
2. And least?: My face i guess. Or tummy. Or hair. Or feet. Hands! Hands.
3. How many fillings do you have?: They all fell out! Baby teeth.
4. Do you think you're good looking?: Every once and awhile ill be like "oh maybe my face isnt THAT ugly" but then i step back into reality. Tee hee!
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: Not really i guess.
6. Do you look like any celebrities?: When my hair was longer this girlie used to call me Katie cuz she thought i looked like Katie Holmes. Weird!
-- Fashion --
1. Do you wear a watch?: Nope and i am constantly going "What time is it?"
2. How many coats and jackets do you own?: Hm. Pink, red, white, white, beige, black. Six.
3. Favorite pants/skirt color?: Dirty Denim. Specially on boys woo fine.
4. Most expensive item of clothing?: I do not know!
5. What kind of shoes do you wear?: Tenni's. I'm not a shoe girlie. At all.
6. Describe your style in one word: Um. Regular? Tee hee.
-- Your Friends --
1. Do your friends 'know' you?: Psh i dont even know me.
2. What do they tend to be like?: Goofier than a mug. But judgemental. But fun. And nice:) Most. Yay:)
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked?: I dont know!
4. How many people do you tell everything to?: Zero! Yay:)
-- Music/TV/Film/Books --
1. Favorite band ever?: Yummy.
2. Most listened to bands: I go through phases. I like solo singers a lot so i can sing along but my fave bands are No Doubt, Good Charlotte, Saves the Day, and Better than Ezra. And Ninedays and Lit. I think thats all.
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking?: Oh oh my husband BENJI is oh so fine. Yah.
4. Can you play an instrument(s)?: Ha nice. I used to play piano. And percussion (snare, bass, bells) for 5 years. A lotta good that did me!
5. Type of music most listened to?: I got in trouble for not hearing any of the new ones! Pretty lady go and do that dance! See i know it now:)
6. Type never listened to?: Heavy metal. Yucky.
7. Favorite book?: Princess.
-- Religion --
1. Do you detest religion?: No way G.
2. How do you think this universe was formed?: Duh God made it! :)
3. If you currently follow a religion, do you think people who belong to another religion are ignorant?: No way, everyone has their own beliefs.
4. If you were in a hostage situation, and you were given a choice, to either praise the demon they follow or die, what would you choose?: Die.:)
-- Homosexuality --
1. What is the first thing you think when you see two gay guys or lesbians holding hands?: Nothing.
2. Do you detest homosexuality?: Not really.
3. Do you agree or disagree with gay or lesbian couples bringing up children?: I dont know. Cuz i wouldnt want to be the kid without a whatever (father/mother) figure. But i never really thought about it.
-- General Questions --
1. Whom do you believe is the smartest man alive at the moment?: You mean smartest LADY??
2. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day?: It depends how i feel.
3. Do you consider yourself lucky?: Yes. I have a roof over my head, food on the table, and clothing. Very lucky.
4. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide?: I *HATE* that almost more than anything else. Selfish selfish selfish SELFISH. And how stupid. No one is going to remember them. Not that everyone wants to be remembered, but that is the most selfish and stupidest thing you can do. I am so YUCKY against it. Woo do not get me started. I HATE that. GO AWWWWWWWAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY.
5. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often: Content. I guess? I never really care how i feel. Usually. I dont know.
1. Do you own any plaid clothing?: A skirt.
2. Do you own Converse shoes?: No.
3. Do you own Saucony shoes?: No.
4. Do you own old school Nikes?: No.
5. Do you wear tight pants? How tight is tight?
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: Not that i know of.
7. Do you know what a squatter flap is?: Um.
8. Do you own a messenger bag?: Nope.
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest?: Ahem.
10. Do you own braces?: Own braces? Like have them? In your mouth?
11. Are braces worn anywhere besides the mouth?: Uhhh?
12. Do you have short, shaggy hair?: I hate my hair.
13. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches?: Tee hee hee.
14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon?: It isnt sharp.
15. Do you think mohawks are "neat"?: If they like that sure.
16. Is your hair black or red?: No its brown.
17. Do you have a favorite brand of hair dye?: With the lady on the front. Ladies. Theres more than one depending on the kind.
18. Do you own a bandana?: Oh yah.
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears?: Nooo.
20. Are you amused by safety pins?: Nooo.
21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute?: Nooo.
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them?: Yaaaah.
23. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service, or Tiger of London?: Nooo.
24. Do you enjoy leopard print?: Nooo HOE ! hahahahaha.
Habits/beliefs
25. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything)?: Noo.
26. Are you an anarchist?: I am dumb and dont know what that is:( Am i?
27. Does the American flag anger you?: Nooo it makes me happy.
28. Are you "working class"?: Ohkay!
29. Do you dislike "preps"?: How can you dislike a group of people? Isnt that called um PREJUDICISM? or something.. Tee hee.
30. Do you dislike Hot Topic?: No, cept right now since they did not have good Good Charlotte patches. Meanies.
31. Do you smoke cigarettes?: Nooo.
32. Do you smoke cloves?: Nooo.
33. Are you a thin waif?: A whatcher?
34. Are you vegan/vegetarian?: I dont eat pigs, but thats all.
35. Do you think meat is murder? Do you think salad is murder?
36. Do your nighttime activites usually involve drunken underage vomiting?: Noo.
37. Have you ever slept in an alley or park?: Nooo.
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week?: Everyday.
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower?: Noo.
40. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor?: I dont know! Ah! Do i smell bad? I was obsessed with that at New Years. Tee hee.
41. Do you know who Jack Kerouac is?: Nooooo.
42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac?: Ohkay?
43. Should Mumia Abu-jamal be freed from prison?: Noo. I dont know who that is. Yesss. Nooo. I dont know.
44. Are you a member of the Makeout Club? Um. Noo.
45. Do you say "rad"?: Nooo.
Age: 16
Birthday: Nov 30
Sign: Sagiwhatever
Location: Tejas. Tee hee. Minus J plus X.
School: MHS.
Status: Single life is for me.. da di da di da di.. we are single yahh... come with me and be free... da di da di da di..
Natural hair color: Brown.
Current hair color: Brown.
Eye color: Brown. Wow im exciting.
Height: 5'6
Birthplace: FO ONE FO!
Shoe size: 7 1/2.
Parents: Mom and Daddy.
Siblings: Yucky.
Live with: Mom, Andrew, Sarah, Kitty, New Kitty, Cash.
[favorites]
Number: 11,17,21,22,27,33,44,55. and if it needs to be real quiet i guess it can be on 7. Or real cold.
Day: Friday?
Month: November or Spring.
Song: Lots.
Movie: Lots.
Food: Lots.
Season: Spring.
Sport: Shopping? Football!
Class: Theatre. English.
Teacher: This year?
Drink: Pretty pink ones.
Veggie: Yummy ones.
TV Show: Boston Public, Everwood.
Radio Station: K104.5, Kiss106.9, 97.9 or Milwaukee V100.7 or Kiss103.7
Word: Tee hee hee.
Animal: Awww.
Flower: Candle Wisteria! Garden in a Jar! I mean um, Daisies.
State: That i been to? Idaho tee hee. That i wanna go to? NY:)
[ this or that ]
Me/You: You are great!
Coke/pepsi: Vanilla Coke but Diet Pepsi. Weird.
Day/night: Nitie nitie.
Aol/aim: AoL.
Cd/cassette: DVD! Tee hee.
Dvd/vhs: CD! Tee hee.
Jeans/khakis: Jeans. I need khakis.
Car/truck: '02 Lexus Convertible. Barbie car! Yay.
Tall/short: In the middle.
Lunch/dinner: Depends.
NSYNC/BSB: Justin is fine when he's solo.
Gap/Old Navy: Express.
Lipstick/Lipgloss: Gloss.
Silver/Gold: Silver.
Alcohol/Weed: One is legal/One is NOT. Nerd.
[ love and relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf?: Noo.
Do you have a crush?: Ahh.
How long have you liked him/her: I am so weird with boys. I can like them for a day or a year. Weird.
How long was your longest relationship?: Lets not talk about it.
How long was your shortest relationship?: HA HAHAHAHAHA.
Who was your first love?: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

And that is the end! Yay.

  posted by me @ 11:52:00 AM

 
Tee hee hee i stole this off Emmalee's livejournal. :) I am back in Texas you know. I am so glad i had that partay for New Years cuz it was extra fun but ahem i think i went a little too weeeeeeee... yah. Four mountain dews and we drank a little. I tried to be a pimp haha i got this great picture of me and Krys like
pimp it! Anyways.

DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet - i just throw my moneys in my purse.
[ x ] Hairbrush - violet round thinger.
[ x ] Toothbrush - white and pink with blue on the bristles tee hee.
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - i change it, or try to, but im not a huge jewelry freak. that bracelet from Mandy and one of my party pairs (earrings) are on now.
[ x ] Pillow cover - um pink, duh.
[ x ] Blanket - white.
[ x ] Sunglasses - i lost my best ones! they were black and plastic. now i still have my brown ones. and my pink lens ones too.
[ x ] Underwear - right now black. i think. yah! match it!
[ x ] Favorite shirt - my new new new new black buttony stripey from charlotte russe. tee hee it makes me smile:)
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - velocity duh.
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - The Young and the Hopeless, duh. husbands.
[ x ] Tattoos - None.
[ x ] Piercings - 3 in each ear. Not that i wear them anymore. :( aw. In 6th thru 8th i did! But now im like eh, earrings. Tee hee.
[ x ] What you are wearing right now - Jeans and a red tank. Yah i got to take a shower still.

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - Um. Teeth?
[ x ] In my head - "On and on and on and on and on and on and.."
[ x ] Wishing - For something to drink to appear of the sky! Yum.
[ x ] After this - Shower.
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, and for what reason - No one. What an awful conscience. I would feel bad with anyone no matter how bad they mad/make me feel.
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - Hmm. Friends! I dont know.
[ x ] Is next to you - Stereo remote and my bracelet.
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - Gone with the Wind, Clueless, Great Expectations, Legally Blonde, Moulin Rouge, Bill and Ted tee hee.
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - Hmm. Weekends? Yah.
[ x ] The last thing you ate - Oh um. A cookie! I dont know really.
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - YOU! AHHHHHHH! Just kidding. I am one screwed up girlie i dont know.
[ x ] Do you like candles - Not really. Cuz it makes me sad. They trap the fire in. BE FREE FIRE, BE FREE! It's like when we had a bonfire, these things are just like huge candles i swear. I hate it caged up so i tried to set it free. The grass was all burnt after though. Aw.
[ x ] Do you like incense - No it stinks. Yucky.
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - Umm do people taste it? Hm i never did!
[ x ] Do you believe in love - AHH SHUT UP!!! RIGHT NOW!!!
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - :(
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - Infatuation at first sight. Yah that would be me.

[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - I dont want one. They dont like me good and should go where they want.
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - I dont know. But once we stayed up the whoooooole nite, watched the sun come up and stuff, then didnt go to sleep til the next nite. Good times, good times.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - I used to! We did that in 4th grade tee hee. I dont member.
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - I hate change! I throw them away! (not really. i get in trouble when i say that tee hee)
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies - I hate shoes! Oh you mean oh. Um i dont know.
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - YOU KNOW ANYONE COULD DIE TODAY.

x 001. name: Penelope.
x 002. sex: Girlie.
x 003. age: Sixteen.
x 004. birthday: November 31. Minus One.
x 005. place of birth: FO ONE FO!
x 006. siblings: Yuckies.
x 007. parents: Mom and Daddy.
x 008. pets: Kittie, Cash, and New Kitty.

Body Stuff
x 009. height: 5'6.
x 016. do you bite your nails: Yahh. Naughty i know.
x 017. can you roll your tongue: No meanies. Shush.
x 018. can you raise one eyebrow at a time: ^^^^^^^
x 019. can you blow smoke rings: I never tried that.
x 020. can you blow spit bubbles: Never tried that either.
x 022. can you flip your eyelids out: Ummm no.

Clothes.
x 026. what goes on first, bra or underwear: Undies.
x 027. which shoe goes on first: Right. Always right.
x 028. speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone: I dont remember.
x 031. what's sexiest on a guy: If you are talking outfits Justin Timberlake has the prettiest outfits ever. Yummy. But i have an obsession with hands. Weird.
x 032. what's sexiest on a girl: I think people are prettiest when they smile. But i dont know what do boys like? Actually scratch that. Yuck nermind.
x 033. would you rather be on time and look ok or 10 minutes late and look great: Late. Fashionably of course.
x 034. do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: I hate spaghetti!

Grooming. (yea grooming, it's time to discuss grooming)
x 038. how often do you brush your teeth: Twice a day. Unless i fall asleep:( I'm sorry dentist! I'm sorry teeth! Look! I will do it extra today! :)
x 039. how often do you shower/bathe: Everyday. Or sometimes two times a day. Cept i skipped one day while i was in Milwaukee. Weird.
x 040. how long does your shower last: like 20 minutes. I have long hair, ohkay?! Sheesh.
x 041. hair drying method: It depends yah.
x 042. do you paint your nails: Yah. They are still gold to match my outift from the other day.

Manners.
x 043. do you swear: Sometimes.
x 044. do you spit or swallow: Ahem. NOOO.
x 046. do you pee in the shower: Ew no. That sounds like a male thing.
x 048. person you talk most on the phone with: Krys or Hailey.
x 049. what color is your bedroom: White n pink.
x 050. do you use an alarm clock: For school. But i am so awful with waking up.
x 051. name one thing you are obsessed with: Ahhh.
x 052. have you ever skinny-dipped with the opposite sex: Yuck no.
x 053. ever sunbathed nude: Yuck no.
x 054. window seat or aisle: Window! Yay.
x 055. what's your sleeping position: ON YOUR BACK, BIOTCH! Tee hee.
x 056. what kind of bed do you like: Little ones! Mine is a queen and i hate it.
x 057. even in hot weather do you use a blanket: Yes i have to have one or else i will get murdered. Just trust me on that one.
x 058. do you snore: I hope not.
x 059. do you sleepwalk: I hope not.
x 060. do you talk in your sleep: My mother told me one time she heard me talking in Danish. *dies laughing*
x 061. do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Teddy bears are fun to look at. But they dont sleep by me.
x 062. how about with the light on: Lights off. Pitch black thank you much. Unless i'm exhausted then i can handle it.
x 063. do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on: Pitch quiet. Unless you know^^^^^.

When was the last time you...
x 064. took a shower: Last morning but i am about to!
x 065. watched bambi: I hate that film!
x 066. cried: New Years Eve Eve. I had no outfit and was just exhausted and ah!
x 067. talked on the phone: This morning i called my mother on her cell. Does that count if it was just a second?
x 068. read a book: Ah i am so bad at that.
x 069. punched someone: Krys pinned me down! I fake punched her New Years Eve.

The future.
x 070. where do you see yourself in ten years: No friggin idea.
x 071. who are you going to be married to: I dont know. Someone good i hope.
x 072. how many kids: 2, Aidan Jacob blahblah and Olivia Rachel blahblah. Or Octavia. I guess my husband can have a say in that. :)

  posted by me @ 10:22:00 AM

 
Krystal and Melissa are sleeping still. It's weird being here. But not at the same time. A lot has happened in the six months i have been gone for. Derek is a druggie. Yes, Derek. The (former?) JV Quarterback, prep boy, my friend is a huge druggie that has been caught skipping school completely and comes stoned. No one talks to Emily. She has the worst reputation in the entire school because she is such a hoe. She gave head to this boy in a locker room at school and got caught. Took him to court, and got him expelled saying he forced her. Everyone knows shes lying. So she got a boy expelled with possible rape charges on his permanent record because she is a hoe and cannot face it. Or something? Singha doesnt talk with Shelby anymore and she has boys buy her skimpy outfits then goes to car shows and models the cars and herself i guess too. Goes to parties with these boys she doesnt know, gets drunk, and who knows what else. Alison is a possible drug dealer, she's got Derek under her wing now. Amy doesnt talk to her. Lauren might not be talking to her. Nathan might have aids. I didnt know him well but hes one of the nicest people for real. Jessica is a druggie. Jessica the girlie who has a poster in her room of how bad drugs are, who preached to us for three years or drugs being bad, sex being bad, who had the best relationship ever with her mother, now does drugs hides it and is probably dragging Sam down too. I dont know if i can handle anymore bad news!

  posted by me @ 9:49:00 AM

 
Wooooow i need to post more. La di da. So um. Updates? Tee hee. Funnn.

~Made the play, one of five 'Ladies of the Court' (in most scenes but few lines, im very happy with it still)
~Finals are thru, dont know how that went, pretty alrite?
~Leaving tomorrow ahhhhh psyched i guess.
~Nervous that our waiter last nite was the sister of the boy we were talking about
La di da... I cannot think of much else. Gotta peee tee hee hee:) Good mood:)

  posted by me @ 3:42:00 PM

 
RAWR! How come i cannot be pretty? I wonder what it would be like to be the prettiest girlie ever. Would you be really snobby? I hope not. And now im missing a party that i really wanted to go to cuz im all sick from being outdoorsies in lil coaties and anyway. The Ring wasnt at the mall theater (yessssss) so we just went shopping and stuff instead. They asked me about wanting a boyfriend,... and then i got all sad... and then i got happy again so it was alrite. I think i laughed a little too much. I really needed to buy pants but im so out of money. What do i do for Christmas? I wanted to make this blankety thing for my mother (we bought this LEARN TO CROCHET thing that teaches you to make it) and yah i am way too bad at following instructions. I learn by visuals! So i dont knw. And daddy i dont know either. I was thinking something with piccies of everyone? Like a big collage! Since we dont see each other but every few months which is really making me pretty sad i thought maybe if he had a thing with pictures of us on it would be like he saw us more. Is that stupid? I dont know la li la. I am excrutiatingly hungry and it smells like really good food here. Just think, i could be off having fun right now but instead im stuck here. Yucky. I wish i was pretty.

  posted by me @ 5:53:00 PM

 
It pisses me off that im so sad right now. JFDKSAJFKDSJ i hate that.

  posted by me @ 10:20:00 PM

 
One thing good about today. Of a few. Im down five pounds from Tuesday:) :) :) :) :) :) :) Dont know how i managed to do that one but im awesomely psyched. YAY:) Also we are going to the films tomorrow nite, they wanna see the Ring... a little scared of that... i dont know if i wanna go at all, i havent been in a really social mood at all this week, i cant believe its already Thursday. Ah.Livejournal, my user name thinger is Sprklydmnd. Yay.

  posted by me @ 5:10:00 PM

 
i hate dumping my shit on people. then i wonder why i have no friends. no one from up there wrote me, called me, anything. nothing. no emails no anything. krystal was on fucking line and she didnt even have the courtesy to message me and wish me a good day. but im very grateful to SoEd for cheering me up with the 20 birthday wishes! How awesome is that? i never usually have even one reply to any kind of post concerning me. so i was very glad. and i mean of course it was fabulous this morning. so its all good. it really bothers me i didnt hear from them though. a lot. and i know that it probably shouldnt. but ah. thats how it goes.

  posted by me @ 11:20:00 PM